keegie love

the bachelorette party was a success...we send our keegie off into married life right (full with kisses to a cop and up until 9 a.m.) now just one more extravaganza (LPH's birthday) and then i will enter a deep seclusion until after the bar. xoxo.

so bar studying is pretty lonely. you spend all day up in a library by yourself, reading and taking multiple choice questions. then, you come home and everyone is out and about because it is a friday and why wouldn't everyone be out and about. so you spend your evening in your humble abode with some ice cream by yourself. but the upside is i get to rent movies that LPH doesn't want to see...which is muy exciting for this girl!

last night my mint chocolate chip ice cream and i curled up in bed and watch definitely maybe and atonement. and i am in love with both. but if you only had to see one, i would go with...definitely maybe. while atonement was great, it had a creepy child in it. i hate creepy children.

but anyways, i must run...long day ahead. bridal shower, birthday party, bachelorette party day. i'm already tired just thinking about it...

side note: definitely is one of those words in the english language that i never know how to spell. in fact, in this post i had to keep looking it up. awful, i know.

fighter

i would absolutely love to run away right now. i'm honestly stressed and feel overwhelmed. this bar exam is like being thrown into a kitchen with over a thousand ingredients and being told to create a masterpiece meal. where does one begin to conquer the task? where do you start? i sit down with my books and my laptop and attempt to study every day. i always feel like i should be doing more. that i'm not doing well enough on my practice exams. and that i don't know where to start the next day. so basically, i want to run away.

the brother todd told me that i'm not a runner, i'm a fighter. which automatically made me think of my favorite christina aguilera song, "fighter." first, you must understand that i make no apologies for my love of pop music or my love of christina aguilera. homegirl can belt it out and i love her. second, this song is on a mix cd i made that has been on repeat in my car and whenever it comes on i dance and sing and just love it. my cute politico who thinks we should all run for office of some sort one day actually says if i ever do run for office, this would be my theme song because its true, i'm a fighter.

so with two of the people that i am closest in my life telling me in some way or another that i'm a fighter, i guess my grand idea to run away is not going to happen. because they're right. so it's time to go fight this bastard of a test...i'm going to start with my fresh fighting attitude tomorrow (don't worry still studying for a good couple hours tonight) and fight this off in baby steps...

"ode to the board of law examiners" with lyrics by christina aguilera

'Cause it makes me that much stronger
Makes me work a little bit harder
It makes me that much wiser
So thanks for making me a fighter
Made me learn a little bit faster
Made my skin a little bit thicker
Makes me that much smarter
So thanks for making me a fighter

it's the little things

my life has officially become boring because of silly bar review. i work, go to class, eat, sleep, etc. and that is about it. i actually look forward to planning my meals, cooking them, and eating them. and by cook i mostly mean microwave because sadly it saves me lots of time. but i have thrown together a quesadilla once or twice.

last night after i got done with a marathon day of learning and was kicked out of the library (mark that my life has become boring and nerdy) i walked over to lolo's apartment and started to complain about the plight that is this summer. he is absolutely fantastic with me on this because he suffered through it last summer so i very rarely am allowed to complain. he usually tells me i only have to do this for a couple of more weeks, it is the end to a very long, painful journey, that i have the intelligence to pass the damn test, and the time i spend complaining is time i could spend studying and to just get it done. which is good because it gets me motivated, back on track, and back to the books. i like when people tell me not to complain because there really is no valid reason for me to do so. i have been blessed with an absolutely great life. i chose to go to law school and want this for myself so this is just one more obstacle to get that dream. so a kick in the ass to remind me of that is something i usually allow and supremely welcome.

but last night instead of telling me to just study for another hour, lo lo let me enjoy summer and we walked down to south bend chocolate factory, got two ice cream cones, and set on monument circle and just people watched. it was exactly what i needed...delightful.

bachelorette update from moi

well, it happened...deanna let go of fred. the only reason i am sad is b/c now i won't get to see him the next couple of episodes. and yes, i just now watched the episode that aired monday...

it's a rainy day so i'm thinking of running to the gym, showering, then lounging all day...no bar study? could happen...

life is just insane

so i have made a decent attempt this summer to try to remain social during the month of june because i know that july awaits me with a month full of hermiting and solitude. but i must say, this social butterfly/bar study/working thing has really made me tired. not to mention that i thought it would be a good idea to go and workout this morning before bar review so i could study all afternoon and now all i can think about is a nap...but alas, after i post this and eat my lunch it is bar review time until 6:30 when i meet one of the loves of my life, ms. keegan, for dinner (seriously, don't know where she has been all my life). yes, no time to stop now kids.

my mom actually sent me this email today about this stress presentation she went to. this speaker rates stress on this scale: 0-4 are things that can be displaced by anything that comes along, 5-7 is where we have to be in order to be productive, and 8-10 is where we choose to either be pushed to high production or allow the situation to control us. at the end of the email, she told me to use my level 8-10 stress and be pushed to high production...easier said then done.

but i think jessica simpson giving me this purse as a reward at pushing my stress to produce highly would make it easier...

a post just for spina rooney

while i was home this past weekend, i had to force myself to get some studying done and finish editing my law review note. so of course i was looking for anything to distract me. about 15 minutes after i sat down at my desk, i started digging through the drawers to see what fun i could find. first, i found my favorite card game ever, phase 10. i used to play it for hours when i was in high school at this little diner that served the world's best biscuits and gravy. this is also the location my affinity for black coffee started (some is brewing for me right now :) ). so of course, i laid them all out to ensure i had a full deck. i was missing a blue 7...but have no fear, i had 2 decks of phase 10 so i stole one from that deck to make a whole deck in which to play this delightful game all summer long...

then i came upon this: This, my friends, is a collage christina made for me. we were doubles partners in high school and of course laughed just as much as we played. for example, one day we played an entire match pretending christina was a foreign exchange student from london. this is also the fated day of "bo" which i will not go into (to protect the "innocent") but damn...it is a good story. you will see christina memorialized this day with the word "bo" on the collage. funny funny girl.

anyways, i posted this purely for christina's enjoyment. i hope it makes you laugh like it made me laugh. then i told logan several stories when i showed it to him last night; needless to say, he thinks we're funny too. and that i haven't changed from high school...weird.

the bachelorette

so last season i re-started watching the bachelor b/c i like abc's television shows online. and i loved LOVED loved matt, the bachelor. 1) he was british...rraarrr 2) he was hilarious to me. and my favorite of the 25 was always shayne. and voila! she got the final rose!! made me so happy!!

so i have now started watching the bachelorette. and i like deanna. not necessarily love her. but like her. and she has a whole lot of crazy on her hands. whoever said the girls were more drama obviously hasn't seen this season of the bachelorette. but i am stating my favorite right here and now...Fred. I love him. he's funny, has a chicago accent, and he's a lawyer! love him! now i know deanna and she's probably not going to keep him around super long, but i'm picking him as my star. and ellen agreed. and when is ellen wrong?